In the blink of an eye, Mom ran up behind me and pushed me into the fence. Instinctively, I reached out my arms to stop my fall and ended up grabbing the live fence. My hands clamped around the thin wires, and my body collapsed to the ground as the electricity coursed through it. I opened my eyes and saw my mother standing over me with the strangest smile on her face. “Oh, my God, I’m going to die!” I thought in panic.
Imagine never being able to close your eyes and remember the feel of your mother’s arms wrapped around you. Now imagine closing your eyes and remembering your mother’s tears splashing down on your face as she is on top of you, crying as she is trying to choke you to death. My mother left me these memories and many more during my traumatic childhood. After many years of struggling with trying to understand “Why Me?” I took back control of my life and started saying, “It was me, now what am I going to do?” The answer is my book, “Why Me?”. It is my childhood journey through the terrors of physical and mental abuse from first grade until the day I moved out. It is my way of letting the world know what was really going on behind closed doors.
It is so incredibly sad that there are even stories like this in our world. This book is about the severe abuses Sarah went through as a child until her teen years when she finally had enough of it all and was given a way out.
I spent most of the book gasping and wondering how no one, not even a neighbor heard any of the abuses that took place or if they heard this child’s suffering, why did they not care enough to help her?
Though this was a pretty short read, page after page is filled with horrid accounts that I am surprised Sarah lived through. She talked of how her mothers abuse not only happened to her but to animals as well.
One day Sarah finished feeding all the animals on the farm, she went into the kitchen to find that her mother had strung a cat that she had killed in the closet. Her mother also abused Sarah’s pet goat by pumping it full or BB’s at close range, so many so that the poor goat bled out and died.
Even now, recalling parts of the book, turns my stomach. This book is not for everyone. The pages are filled with violent abuse that ranges from words to unimaginable physical suffering for Sarah. In the end Sarah does get out, alive. You wont want to put the book down, you want to know how she gets out and how she turns out.
I recommend this book for the simple fact that stuff like this happens everywhere, every day yet so many people turn a blind eye and a deaf ear to it and sometimes these kids don’t make it out alive.